To be determined at a later date...

Because my Dad asked me...

Thump, thump, thump...my heart beats loudly. I look around at all the oblivious faces that fill the busy coffee shop around me waiting for thier morning pick me up. They are too busy with thier phones and lives to notice the tragedy that is unfolding around them. I try to scream the warning, but gripped with fear nothing escapes my lips. So I stand their open-mouthed and wide eyed knowing in a few minutes that whether they believe in God or not they will know the truth.

The day started ordinary enough and there was not a hint that it should go any different than it has the last two years since I moved to this small town in Oregon. I moved here for the simplicity of life, after a grueling harsh career as a real estate agent in southern California.

To be continued....

Pebbles

A calm, smooth body of water is disrupted by a simple pebble causing ripples. When I think of pebbles and ripples I thought of something completely different than that of a wise man I know. I thought of pebbles as little nuggets of criticism, judgment, teasing and negative comments. A pebble causes ripples in someone’s life and even though they smooth out the pebble is left behind, changing the makeup of that individual, not for the best. The other version I heard from this wise man was that pebbles are important to one’s life. Pebbles cause ripples keeping their life from becoming stationary, stagnant and fetid. It is amazing how a simple ripple caused by a pebble can have different meanings to different people. I know that this concept told to me will forever be a pebble that has added ripples to my life changing my personal makeup in how I think keeping my mind from becoming stationary, stagnant and fetid.

My Box

There is box that fits nicely around me. It's a comfortable and safe box that I have built out of fear. Fear of what ifs, and what has, the failures and hurts. Even though I have built it for protection, it seems that it has also been a detriment, for it's keeps me living in fear. As I have gotten older I have looked at my life and realized how much I have missed, and how much I haven't done all because of my box. My children keep trying to breech the perimeter I have set and through diffiulty I let them, for I don't want them to be afraid as I am. I look at them with envy and pride as they take on this world with confidence and strength. I have this past year broken out and done more than I ever imagined in life. It has helped me see all that I could have accomplished by now if I had just never built this box, so now I will step out and leave it behind and begin to live.